In youth we learn; in age we understand.
Marie Ebner von Eschenbach
Tuesday, September 30, 2008
Monday, September 29, 2008
Sunday, September 28, 2008
Friday, September 26, 2008
stay tuned...
job interview monday. dont know how to feel about it. i didnt even apply for this job.
QotD:
"What's money? A man is a success if he gets up in the morning and goes to bed at night and in between does what he wants to do. "
Bob Dylan
QotD:
"What's money? A man is a success if he gets up in the morning and goes to bed at night and in between does what he wants to do. "
Bob Dylan
Thursday, September 25, 2008
Heath's quote of the day....
more nagging...about jobs...W.E.I.N.? I WILL GET ONE!!!! :0D
Idleness is not doing nothing. Idleness is being free to do anything.
Floyd Dell
Idleness is not doing nothing. Idleness is being free to do anything.
Floyd Dell
Wednesday, September 24, 2008
Autumn In
It's starting to smell like fall in the air, and the sun is the perfect temperature. Although it's still 80 degrees easily, that slight wind and that certain...aroma....is present. It's a comforting smell, and reminds me that this is my first fall that I have spent somewhere other than New York. I do miss it, I get very nostaglic waves every now and again. My present doesn't seem like a present, because I'm not being productive. Why is it that I feel like my most fun memories and experiences are already behind me? I think that might be why I have such a bitter and pessimistic approach to the future. It's all downhill from here, isn't that what they say? I'd like to believe that making money and transitioning into my adult life will be fulfilling for me - that the days of being carefree, even reckless at times - belong in the past. Maybe my idea of what is fun will start to change also.
I'm looking forward to becoming the adult version of myself...I can't say that I've truly felt like an adult at any point in time. I have adult responsibilities which I take care of, and I can drink and vote and all that good stuff...but what is it going to be that erases that last strand of youth that i cling to? Is there a specific age in which it is inappropriate to behave a certain way? It's strange...society views floaters and people who are in their 30's or even late 20's that don't have a job or have alternative sources of income besides a 9-5 as "losers." I'd rather do that and be happy than feel numb to my own life because of my surroundings. I think then I'd truly be a loser.
Of course everyone wants to make money, but I think there are enough ways to do it where being miserable isn't involved. Very few people are lucky enough to be rich AND happy. But in my opinion, being rich comes from your soul being fulfilled by the people, experiences, and memories that you choose to surround yourself with. Now don't get me wrong, I'm fully aware a job is a necessity, and bills can't be paid with love. But I also know that no matter what my bank account says, I feel rich at times, and that's a wealth that nobody can take away from me. I think I'm going to start writing a quote every day on my blog. I really enjoy writing on this thing, and I should do it more. I know I have a few regular readers.:-) So here's the first "heath's quote of the day".....
"A preoccupation with the future not only prevents us from seeing the present as it is but often prompts us to rearrange the past. " ~Eric Hoffer
I'm looking forward to becoming the adult version of myself...I can't say that I've truly felt like an adult at any point in time. I have adult responsibilities which I take care of, and I can drink and vote and all that good stuff...but what is it going to be that erases that last strand of youth that i cling to? Is there a specific age in which it is inappropriate to behave a certain way? It's strange...society views floaters and people who are in their 30's or even late 20's that don't have a job or have alternative sources of income besides a 9-5 as "losers." I'd rather do that and be happy than feel numb to my own life because of my surroundings. I think then I'd truly be a loser.
Of course everyone wants to make money, but I think there are enough ways to do it where being miserable isn't involved. Very few people are lucky enough to be rich AND happy. But in my opinion, being rich comes from your soul being fulfilled by the people, experiences, and memories that you choose to surround yourself with. Now don't get me wrong, I'm fully aware a job is a necessity, and bills can't be paid with love. But I also know that no matter what my bank account says, I feel rich at times, and that's a wealth that nobody can take away from me. I think I'm going to start writing a quote every day on my blog. I really enjoy writing on this thing, and I should do it more. I know I have a few regular readers.:-) So here's the first "heath's quote of the day".....
"A preoccupation with the future not only prevents us from seeing the present as it is but often prompts us to rearrange the past. " ~Eric Hoffer
Sunday, September 7, 2008
It's been awhile..
I guess in a way a lot has happened since I last wrote. Jim finally came down here to be with me, after a couple fights and me being on the verge of saying screw it all. My frustration was at an all time high, but I still believe things could turn out the way they need to be. Maybe I'm just being too hopeful, or naive, but I guess that's life, and everything is a lesson. We'll see what happens. He needed to be taken away from the atmosphere in which he was stifled, and couldn't even grow if he wanted to. I always left it up to him whether or not he came with me, and he told me that he wanted to be happy with me, wherever that may be. He does have his redeeming moments. I do love him, and time will tell what the outcome of our adventure together shall be.
Other than that, summer is coming to a close, although you wouldn't know it by the weather. We just celebrated my mom's birthday, which is exactly a week and 25 years before mine. It was a nice night of playing monopoly, having a couple drinks, and mom opening her presents. Oh yeah, and the cheesecake I made for her wasn't half bad either. I love having a fall birthday. It's nice. This is the first birthday in like 3 or 4 years that I'll actually be spending with my family.
Amber comes Wednesday!!! YESSSS! We'll definitely have some adventures to report on, and it'll be so nice to be able to have some girly time and show her around. She does want to move here when she finishes grad school, and I really hope she likes it. The landscape is a lot like Central New York, the weather's just nicer and the soil is orange instead of brown because it's clay. Oh yeah, and the ocean is about 3 hours away. I am really impressed that somebody's coming to visit me, it's really nice to know that friends DO miss me and DO care enough to take time and money to come see me. It means the world, and I can't wait to see what kind of trouble we get into! We've been friends for twelve years.
Yes, I know I need to get a job, mom...since I know you're reading this. Don't worry, I will get one. And the day that happens will be exciting and nervewracking all at the same time. But don't think I've forgotten and don't think that I stopped searching...because I haven't. :-)
Other than that, summer is coming to a close, although you wouldn't know it by the weather. We just celebrated my mom's birthday, which is exactly a week and 25 years before mine. It was a nice night of playing monopoly, having a couple drinks, and mom opening her presents. Oh yeah, and the cheesecake I made for her wasn't half bad either. I love having a fall birthday. It's nice. This is the first birthday in like 3 or 4 years that I'll actually be spending with my family.
Amber comes Wednesday!!! YESSSS! We'll definitely have some adventures to report on, and it'll be so nice to be able to have some girly time and show her around. She does want to move here when she finishes grad school, and I really hope she likes it. The landscape is a lot like Central New York, the weather's just nicer and the soil is orange instead of brown because it's clay. Oh yeah, and the ocean is about 3 hours away. I am really impressed that somebody's coming to visit me, it's really nice to know that friends DO miss me and DO care enough to take time and money to come see me. It means the world, and I can't wait to see what kind of trouble we get into! We've been friends for twelve years.
Yes, I know I need to get a job, mom...since I know you're reading this. Don't worry, I will get one. And the day that happens will be exciting and nervewracking all at the same time. But don't think I've forgotten and don't think that I stopped searching...because I haven't. :-)
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