Autumn In

It's starting to smell like fall in the air, and the sun is the perfect temperature. Although it's still 80 degrees easily, that slight wind and that certain...aroma....is present. It's a comforting smell, and reminds me that this is my first fall that I have spent somewhere other than New York. I do miss it, I get very nostaglic waves every now and again. My present doesn't seem like a present, because I'm not being productive. Why is it that I feel like my most fun memories and experiences are already behind me? I think that might be why I have such a bitter and pessimistic approach to the future. It's all downhill from here, isn't that what they say? I'd like to believe that making money and transitioning into my adult life will be fulfilling for me - that the days of being carefree, even reckless at times - belong in the past. Maybe my idea of what is fun will start to change also.

I'm looking forward to becoming the adult version of myself...I can't say that I've truly felt like an adult at any point in time. I have adult responsibilities which I take care of, and I can drink and vote and all that good stuff...but what is it going to be that erases that last strand of youth that i cling to? Is there a specific age in which it is inappropriate to behave a certain way? It's strange...society views floaters and people who are in their 30's or even late 20's that don't have a job or have alternative sources of income besides a 9-5 as "losers." I'd rather do that and be happy than feel numb to my own life because of my surroundings. I think then I'd truly be a loser.

Of course everyone wants to make money, but I think there are enough ways to do it where being miserable isn't involved. Very few people are lucky enough to be rich AND happy. But in my opinion, being rich comes from your soul being fulfilled by the people, experiences, and memories that you choose to surround yourself with. Now don't get me wrong, I'm fully aware a job is a necessity, and bills can't be paid with love. But I also know that no matter what my bank account says, I feel rich at times, and that's a wealth that nobody can take away from me. I think I'm going to start writing a quote every day on my blog. I really enjoy writing on this thing, and I should do it more. I know I have a few regular readers.:-) So here's the first "heath's quote of the day".....

"A preoccupation with the future not only prevents us from seeing the present as it is but often prompts us to rearrange the past. " ~Eric Hoffer