What ever happened to alliesbud?

Not only have I never seen that screen name online, I'm missing the person behind it. I'm sad, disappointed, discouraged, everything...I'm waiting for the sun to reappear in my life. If you don't know what Im talking about, you don't need to. I've communicated to my closest friends what's going on in my life, in my family. I feel like im falling apart. i finally get to a place where i feel like everythings okay enough to the point where I can really focus on me, and its not. Mom tells me not to worry. Telling me not to worry about something like this is like telling the sun not to rise. My dad's disappeared...i dunno who this new person is. i dont like him very much, either. i dont like how he's making me feel. i havent been this hurt in a long time. all i can do now is wait for a response.