Friday, October 3, 2008

no matter what i do

i came here with an open mind. i feel like in the cartoons when that grey cloud follows the person arond wherever they go. it must be me, because im miserable no matter what. i cant seem to find happiness in any form. well, almost any form. i want to see a therapist. but that requires money and/or health insurance. neither of which i have. i keep everything inside because i don't know where to put it. i started running this week..well running and walking when i felt like i might die. but it feels good. i have a lot of pent up....something.....anger, frustration, confusion, just a general unsettled feeling. i cant shake it and im such a downer. my friends are loving life for hte most part, and i should be too. what a boring existence. why am i chronically pissed off? i gotta figure this out either way...



i really feel like running away. or driving in this case. and i know exactly where i'd go.

1 comment:

suzette said...

You are fortunate to know exactly where would you go. Where would you go and what is stopping you?