Noir

I've been having trouble sleeping at night. Apparently so has my ex boyfriend. Strange.

I'm tired of it, no pun intended. My bed is comfortable, and the room is dark, and it's quiet minus the ducks, so what's the deal? Oh, that's right, my mind is reeling 24/7.

I got some news last Tuesday, left work early, and spent the rest of the day mourning the loss of a relationship that can never be repaired. It's like putting a piece of bubble gum over a leak. It might hold for awhile, but the water will never stop coming through. I'm tired of the roller coaster, I'm tired of the progression of things that should have never started. Quite the snowball effect, if I've ever seen it. The man I knew growing up does not exist anymore, a stranger exists instead. It does break my heart, and there will always be a piece missing. Time doesn't heal all wounds. Time just lessens the searing pain of it all. Yes, life goes on, but it will never stay the same.

On a more positive note, I found out today that I can see DMB on Tuesday. I have been hoping and praying for this miracle, and it has arrived! YESSSSSSS. Dave Matthews concerts save my soul. <3 dave.

Trav comes home on Sunday. This should be interesting. He's home til next year, so we shall see. I'm good with where we are, wherever that is. Patience is a virtue.

Work's good, friends are good, life is good.