She feels like kicking out all the windows

It's been a few weeks, I know. Things are ever changing. I think the thing i seek most lately would have to be balance. I'm trying to find my groove, of what works for me. The gears are still a little rusty, though.

I finally got high speed at work, and I can't believe I went 4 months without it...I really can't. I will never have to hear that eeee errrrr eeeee KKKKKKK of the dial-up modem again! Won't miss that! As of now, I'm chatting with Kacie on facebook AND blogging at the same time! And there's not even smoke coming out of the computer! I think Steve's intimidated by the lightning speed of the computer. By the time he finished asking me to look something up, I already had it up on the screen. He was astonished. I can't wait til the next time he asks me to look up the "radar" on the weather, and we can actually see the animations!! That'll be a BIG day for both of us!!

Anyway, Kacie is coming out tonight for some much needed fun. It should be a really good time, since it always is. I'm excited about that.

I've been reading a few good books lately. "Why your life sucks and what you can do about it" and "Don't be THAT girl". They offer insight written in a humorous way - something I can definitely relate to and get more out of than something clinically written. I'm still waiting to hear back from the therapist I called a couple weeks ago. She's been on vacation. I'm looking forward to adding that to the steps I've taken in order to get myself back.

My birthday's in a couple weeks. Where did 23 go?? No matter what, 24 is going to be my year. I'm going to make it so. Cause when 25 rolls around, I don't want to be asking myself the same questions.

Monica's back in town, and I'm soooooo glad. It's been amazing hanging out with her like we used to. I needed it. We always seem to come into eachother's lives full force when it's really needed. I have a good feeling that we'll both be okay. We're strong, and smart. And TOUGH. And anybody who is "not nice" to either of us doesn't deserve our time. I'm learning that. There's no reason not to be nice at this age. I'm not who I was in high school anymore, and people need to recognize that. If they can't, that's sad.

I'll get there.


Love you mom.