What a strange day...

Today started out like any other day..me peeling myself out of bed, satisfied with my weekend. Traffic on 690 is down to one lane by West St., so it takes at least ten minutes longer than usual to get to work. That doesn't bother me so much.

What bothers me is the foot long scrape that I discovered on the passenger side of my car. Probably from the drunk muscle-shirt wearing slob that was drinking and swaying around in the parking lot by his storage unit all day yesterday. That doesn't make me too happy, because those are the things that people shouldn't get away with...but I'll do my best to paint it.

That bad mood passed, and was followed by a certain bliss. I have not yet become bored with this routine, I kind of welcome it. After all, I have so much to look forward to in these coming summer months. Dave concerts, reunions, beautiful weather, and great friends.

I got a phone call today. That ringtone twists my stomach into knots, in a good way. "I've been thinking about ya" flooded my heart. Sometimes all you need to hear is a certain voice, and everything seems to make sense. Everybody who regularly reads this and who knows me knows whos voice that is. There's been more and more talk about taking it to the next level, and it doesn't seem like a joke anymore, or a taunt. I could be wrong, but it just feels different. We shall see. A couple months and being together could be possible. That's a good amount of time to get myself together. I better hurry. I have a newfound motivation - one that comes from within AND outside sources.

I think that I am good on my own. But I think with the right person, I would feel infintitely better. I don't need it. I want it. I think that's healthy to have desires in life. Anybody who claims that they're satisfied is usually kidding themselves, and others. Those who seem satisfied to the outside also may be the most unsatisfied on the inside. Learned that lesson the hard way. There's nothing like love; the fact that it can feel so damn good and hurt so damn bad simultaneously and that nobody can seem to put the feeling into words or an explanation.


Anyways, just felt like exploding so I had to have some sort of outlet. Today starts a new life for me. It's official. Stay tuned.







you have my heart. dont break mine and i wont break yours.